When Audriana was born, everything seemed to go at rapid speed. There was no offering of cutting the cord or me holding her. They quickly swooped her up and evaluated her. Out of 10, her Apgars score was a 4! I was told my little miss decided to go boo boo while still in mommy, gross baby girl! Her second reading 10 minutes later gave us a 9, things looking up. At this point I still had not held her and would not get to until many hours later. Heart breaking! The nurse said she felt it best that she be taken right away to the nursery for closer observation. I noticed at this time that something did not look quite right with her eye.
Everything is still pretty fuzzy from that day, but I think it was about 4-5 hours later when our doll was brought back in our room, a new room I want to add. With a nonworking air system in August! All we pretty much had was a fan that really did not do the trick, but back to my doll baby. She was so beautiful! I asked again about her eye. I thought it was swollen, however Eric pointed out to me how that did not make sense, because her other eye was larger. We were so confused. I kept asking people about her eye and a meeting was set up for her to see a childrens eye doctor across the street at Children's Hospital about an hour later if memory serves. After just getting my doll, she was being pulled away again! Eric, my aunt Carol, and uncle James along with a nurse, took baby Audriana through the underground tunnel to see Dr. Gitschlag. I stayed in constant contact through phone calls and text. Everyone came back with optimistic thoughts that Audriana had a bit of a smaller eye, but that vision in this eye was still not only possible, but probably for sure.
We stayed in the hospital until friday August 6th, an extra day for mommy to rest and for baby to be closer observed. While in the nursery and one of her check ups, we were told she had a bit of a choking spell and oxygen had to be applied. It was on this day that a different doctor from her pediatricians office came in to talk to us. There was a different one everyday, however all seemed optimistic about her eye, but this one. He came in and in a matter of fact way said, so I understand from speaking with the nurses that your daughter has a small eye and will not have any vision out of it correct? My heart sank, as Im sure Eric's did too. I got a huge lump in my throat and choked back tears. We quickly corrected him that no we were told she probably would have vision and this is when the probability that our beautiful, wonderful, amazing, perfect little baby may never have vision out of her right eye. Blind in one eye. Four words that I would not be able to say for sometime without streams of tears flowing from my eyes. We held eachother and cried. Ours lives had been completely thrown upside down and that certain future was not so certain anymore.
Its time to get ready to take my gal to the park, so I will say bye for now and our continue our story later! Blessings to all and thanks for reading! : )
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